Today I woke up not feeling good physically, and just overall feeling drained and doubtful... Today I needed a moment on paper to make sense of the compacted amount of emotions and thoughts going on.
Yesterday after an amazing hour of learning, and meeting new people through a video call I realized how much weight I’m carrying right now.
When it gets to be too much I tend to then take on everyone else’s worries, stress, and emotions because it’s easier to try and help others than to focus on reassuring and working through your own unknowns aka fears.
One of the major things I needed to see on paper today is how I judge and worry about the fact I have times of doubt even though I have already been told by God that everything will be ok and even better.
But then I realize that it’s ok to be doubtful at times and it’s just human nature to fear how it will possibly be ok. I’m realizing how much as a kid I was use to being completely certain of the outcome and that I would know the outcome, and the need from others for me to tell them it would go the way they expect.
I don’t know exactly how the outcome is going to be of anything but I do know that there is pressure to be let go of by knowing that when it comes I can figure out steps to take.
I am seeing the past few days of how this time will help me to step up and allow me to become more than I could ever imagine myself to be... I know it’s not easy not knowing the outcomes ahead, but I do know will always have inner guidance to figure it out! ❤️🌎 #covid_19 #unkown #certainty #know #pressure #perfection #emotions
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