Looking towards recovery, better than a broken heart and empty promises
In honour of #nedaweek
, I’ll #comeasyouare
by sharing my story. As you may know, I have suffered through anorexia. It all started in about fifth grade, where I noticed all the characters in anime and cartoon shows were always super thin, and then i started to exercise. It was never a problem, or so I thought. Fast forward to the next year, sixth grade, where I get diagnosed with body dysmorphia and Ana had already had me in her clutches. And yet I was unaware. Oblivious. All I knew back then was I wanted to be like he characters on the shows I watched, to be well liked and to look good. But then the exercise became obsessive. I would do an insane amount of sit-ups and pushups and just about any other abdominal exercise I could find every night, and not letting myself sleep for hours until I was done. I did this all in secrecy. Fast forward to a few years later, and I tell my parents about how i lives exercise. They didn’t think much about it, until we went on a vacation and my rituals had taken over my life so much where I couldn’t go a day without exercising. I would only eat excessively healthy foods too. Then came my best friend. She developed an eating disorder too, and we fed off of each others bad habits and eating rituals. I tried everything to help her, save her, but finally upon almost giving up on her, I gave up on myself. I let Ana swallow me whole. Shortly after I was sent to @childrens
and I met my new support system. I was sent to inpatient for three weeks straight where I met some of the most wonderful people in my life. I learned, slowly but surely, how to live my life again. I learned to love again. I was so angry back then. So hurt. I had to fight my way through this obstacle in my life, and I’m still fighting, don’t get me wrong. But I’ve fought hard for where I am now. And you can fight too. I believe in all of you guys out there struggling, and I’m so proud of everyone who has overcome such an obstacle in their lives. I’m sending my love to you all!
#nedaweek2020 #anorexiafighter #ed #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorder
#recovery #ibelieveinyou #lotsoflove